Happy mooncake festival...

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!!!

Happy? How is the feeling of happy? I am confused about it...
I had forget how laugh sincerely since how long time already...
Sometimes, I'm laughed loudly without any purpose or reason...
Sometimes, I'm down but I am unclear with the reason too...
Is it my life is going with some problems?
Maybe... I think like that as it is I hope so...

My life is too meaningless, especially for this year, 2012...
What I did most frequently in this year? WAITING...
First, I waited for March, which is the reveal of SPM results.
Next, I waited for May,which is SECOND batch National Service...
Then, I waited for July, which is the releasing from National Service Camp...
After that, I waited for September, as I am informed by certain university that I am ready for their September intake...
Unfortunately, I have no such good luck thus I need to WAIT again...

Now, what I do everyday?
Eating, drinking, sleeping, working and online...
I had make a round trip form working shop and my home...
Maybe, my life is too boring too...

I had learned some lessons that are valuable too although my life is passed meaningless...
I obtained them from National Service and working too...
I learnt that how is important of independent.
Don't rely on others. Don't desire any care or attention from others. Please protect your own prestige.
Life is yours. Nobody will live your life for you.

Vent

Nobody will be satisfied with his/ her life. Everybody keeps complain about their life. Me TOO.
The first thing I think everyday when I wake up is "today still need go to work..." It's how annoying and weird. I did the chores repeatedly everyday moreover the chores I dislike the most. Everyday, every minute, every second, I am waiting for time passing with my sleepy face and heavy eyelids.
All of you are complaining about study, homework, assignment, tests... Have you ever know that what I face everyday? The messy clothes and the disgusting customers! I prefer to face what you are complaint.
Unfortunately, I was chosen to have this kind of life instead of choose the life which I admired... Between "choose" and "chosen", I have no choice... I can't be a burden... I can't ignore the bitterness of you...
Please remember that someone is longing for something which you dislike. Did you know what is her feeling when you complain in front of her every time?

Please don't attempt to challenge my patience. I am not patient as you think.
Please don't look at me with your suspicious eyes. I am not rely on you.
Please don't slam door at me. I don't owe you a debt!

无能为力

漂浮着的气球就只能没有目的地的漂浮吗？

此刻的我，就像这漫无目的地的气球，只能随风漂浮……

遇到障碍物就被弹走……

可是能怎么办呢？

我也不想啊……

不一样……

不一样的你，不一样的感觉，不一样的气氛
有些人就是当普通朋友的好
少了那个身份，少了那个负担，少了那把枷锁
我们聊起来更轻松，更自在
你，不一样的……无论是和同性还是异性的朋友
你不像同性朋友般细心入微，不会太过探索隐私，不会让我无法隐藏情绪
你也不像异性朋友般喜欢问些我不喜欢的课题
也许，这只是因为你并没有用心关心我，只是把我当作打发时间的工具
但是，我无所谓~
因为，和你聊天很自在，不必太拘束，不必太过操心
毕竟你和其他的异性朋友不一样，和他们聊天始终有一道槛
但，你已经越过那槛，也退回原处了……

很庆幸，和你分手后还可以保持朋友关系
这关系似乎比那“交往”的两年更好呢~
你的确是只适合朋友 ^^

至于我的他，以现阶段来说，比较适合当情人^^
他，只有在情人面前会表现出不认真，不严肃，调皮好玩的个性吧~
只有身为他的情人，才能感受到他的热情、温柔、体贴^^